If i don't get an adrenaline rush soon I am going to go insane. I need danger, i need to be scared, i need to FEEL something real. I don't have any dirtbikes, or tubes or speedboats, snowmobiles or cars here. Walking down dark deserted streets doesnt do anything for me, I lack emotion and they dont scare me. I lack emotion, have i mentioned? I'm like a brick wall, and that sucks for my acting career. I need to break it down if i ever want to improve and expand my horizons.
Confession: I'm an adrenaline rush addict.
Probably another reason i've been rather depressed. I feel like playing with fire or just going fast. Ha i realize what a crazy person i sound like. ha.
i think i need anti depressants. oh wait, cant take pills. Well nevermind, i guess it's just fucked for the time being. I'm so happy out here, truly. But it's days like these that just put a wet rag on things for a bit. I'm out Where I've been dreaming about, going to my dream school, with awesome people and i get to spend everyday doing what i love and chasing my dreams. I don't understand what my problem is today. But tomorrow shall be a better day :) i feel like i'm just typing jumbles of intertwining bullshit. so i'm going to stop typing.
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